hello fellow j-pouchers,
I am 4 months out now. I am feeling very frustrated because I thought things were getting stabilized, then the evening / nighttime hell starts up again. My diet is still pretty routine every day - bagel/eggs for breakfast; fish sandwich for lunch; ice cream with a few walnuts for dessert; fish, steamed veggies, yoghurt for dinner. Note, I do not keep a food journal, nor do I want to. I find it very cumbersome and I just don't want to become so obsessive with diet (i already am hesitant in expanding my diet).
Here are a few of my issues:
First issue:
Sometimes when I poop, the poop feels so "stuck", and I have to strain until it "POPS" out.
Next issue:
Some foods really hurt when they exit my anus. Maybe after a few walnuts or something else? Feels like rocks scraping out of my ass and "popping" into the toilet.
Next issue:
I have back-and-forth bathroom trips to get more emptied. For whatever reason, I cannot empty my pouch in the same trip (Note, NO stricture). I crawl back to bed after the bathroom, douse my ass in calmoseptine, and moan in pain.
Next issue:
Sometimes the last bit of gas is so hard to get out, and I really have to strain. If I don't, it gets uncomfortable, and I want to get that gas out.
Next issue:
Sometimes in the middle of the night, I wake up to use the bathroom, and I am so tired, and want to hurry back to bed, that I strain in order to empty the pouch faster. (I am probably not helping things by straining.)
I am so frustrated with my pouch. Please tell me it can STILL get better.
1.) Last bit of gas is so hard to get out, and I really have to strain - Gets better?
2.) Sometimes poop feels so "stuck", and I have to strain until it "POPS" out. - Gets better?
3.) Some foods really hurt when they exit my anus. Feels like rocks scraping out of my ass and "popping" into the toilet. - Gets better?
4.) Sometimes I am so tired, that I strain in order to empty the pouch faster. - Gets better?
5.) For whatever reason, I cannot empty my pouch in the same trip, and have to make back-to-back trips (NO stricture). Gets better?
I still don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. Yes, I am better since my surgery 4 months ago, but I don't notice any MAJOR improvements anymore?, and I am beginning to wonder if these painful "annoyances" and "inconveniences" I have outlined above are just some of the everyday "quirks" you guys allude to when talking about your own j-pouches, and if I will just have to deal with them long term or not. I did not think living with a j-pouch would be this difficult and discouraging.
thank you.
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