hey there,
my name is Clark and I had my oleo stony reversal after a total collectomy in February. I didn't have a great time getting used to my pouch and am suffering from cuffitis which did not respond to treatment. I go in in 2 weeks for a rectal stripping procedure to see if the scar tissue will protect/save the little bit of rectum they left. I am still pretty sick all the time and in pain meds to get me sort of functional but I'm really not happy with my quality of life right now.
im weak and I can't do the things I love and I can't be out for too long unless I don't eat.
i know many people have permenant oleostomies but I am terrified that that is going to be my outcome. I had a few blockages when I had my stoma and those were pretty painful and scary. I'm just really tired and running low on being positive about my situation. I feel like it's all I talk about half the time and I feel like my friends have probably had enough. I feel like I'm right back where I started before I had my first surgery a year ago. I think I'm beginning to get really depressed about it and I just don't know what to do. I thought maybe it would be helpful to talk to other people who struggle with these kinds of things instead of leaning on my friends so much. I really just want to have a fucking life.