Yes, you can - there is a way to send me a private message - I think. I have to look around on this as I'm pretty new to the forum, too. I will try to figure out how to private message you and send you my e-mail.
I know what you mean about fear of pill popping. I took dilaudid (sp) - a form of morphine - during all the surgeries for pouch and then during later surgeries (hysterectomy, oophorectomy) and then they botched that surgery and I had to have small intestine repaired where they perforated it. This is the magic painkiller for me - plain morphine makes me crazy. Anyway, I've always gotten off of it pretty easily - mainly as I was so afraid of becoming an addict. If you are in pain, you take the meds. Then, see if you can get off them (slowly) and see if pain lessens. I'm sure you have already tried A and D ointment and using baby wipes every time you go. I have definitely been through periods of time when it was awful and painful - but so far it has always gotten better. So sorry you are dealing with the pain - this getting older is really quite something. We must laugh!
Your story is really interesting - you do have FAP and neither parent had it? There must be a genetic thing going on here - as in a recessive gene they did not know about or it skipped a generation or something science does not know about. I would love to write with you more via e-mail to learn more about this.
I think you live in the UK? You may not want to say on this forum - but some of your word choices sound like you do. My family (Dad's side - FAP side) comes from Wales - but has been in America since 1650s - a man came from Wales - he was a minister and one of the founders William and Mary College here in the states.( Maybe we are related! You never know!) I forget how many generations back it goes - I have the paperwork. The rest of his family stayed behind, I believe. He married someone here. I have always wanted to go and see where that side of the family is in England - on my bucket list if I can ever get to it!
I meant to tell you not to be too mad at yourself about bumping into walls! I seem to do that more often than not and I am not on any painkillers now. I think it's just getting older and not paying much attention to what I'm doing.
Again, I will do some looking around this site and see how to private message you to exchange e-mails.