I am in pain constantly since my takedown just a week ago or so. I have a few questions I was hoping someone could help me with. I have terrible butt burn, but only on the inside. The last inch or so of my anal canal is absolutely on fire. It takes my breath away. I don't go to the bathroom at all during the day right now. It starts in the evening before bed and throughout the night I can't sleep well because I can feel that small space filling just inside my anus(is this the j-pouch?) and it stays on a low simmer burn for hours. When I finally poop in the morning, it is so awful that I have to lay down. After so many hours of burn and little sleep I am fragile and falling apart. I find myself eating less to avoid bigger internal burn problems. Is there anything like a suppository that will ease the fire? The outside ointments don't touch the inside burn. And is there an enzyme or vitamin or spray or potion I should take? Any suggestions at all?
Give me a list and I will try everything and anything.
I also seem to have a disconnect between my brain and my butt. I cant tell what the heck is going on down there. I seem to have lost the ability to understand when and if I need to have a bowel movement. I can't push the same way for some reason and find myself using different muscles to help the poop out .... and gravity. I sometimes think a fart is a poop and Im surprised when nothing is there-and vice versa. I feel like this j-pouch is a stranger. I am usually so active and happy, but I find myself just sitting in exhausted fear of the next butt-burn-pain-toilet-run. I feel humilated and sad.
Between the internal anal burn and the brain disconnect....I feel alive but very broken.