I haven't written about any of my experiences lately, but I'm feeling at my wits end again. I'm up again late, as I am most nights due to my inner anal area being in severe pain.
I mentioned before that I don't have insurance anymore, so I can't run to the Dr like I use too. I know this is the same for a lot of you, it feels like I'm all cut up just in the inner anal opening. I'm really not sure if it's a fissure, like I've read about here on the site or butt burn anymore. It seems like for the last month, every night my butt is burning, itching, and the feeling like I'm expelling glass!
My marriage is on the rocks because of all these issues I'm trying to deal with. Like to Ohhh for example, I'm awake because of the dang pain...So my hhusband is upset and sleeping in the extra bedroom because I have the tv on.
The Dr has not officially ever diagnosed me with pouchitis or fissure. He has thrown it out there.
I have lidocaine cream, a protective barrier cream, angiotrofin. I'm currently using just the barrier cream and lidocaine. I'm going to schedule an appointment soon, I can't stand the pain. I do have hydrocodone and do use it in dire needs like tonight, but it doesn't always work to take the pain away, like tonight... I'm thinking of taking another, I'm in tears, it hurts!
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