Hi all, I've been off this board for quite some time. I wish I could say it's because I've been doing spectacularly but, the truth is, I've been suffering for the past four months or so. I suspect it was precipitated by the stress of an ailing father-in-law and his passing in May. I've been on some combo of Cipro and Flagyl, or one at a time, for the two and a half years since my takedown. Every time I try to go off, I get severe gas, cramping and urgency. I'm on VSL and Lexapro, which I began taking during my last attempt to get off the antibiotics, and I don't think the Lexapro is doing anything, including treating my depression from chronic symptoms. I know I need to arrive at my own decision regarding my future but I'm reaching out to those who truly understand how difficult this journey can be. When is enough enough and time to go back to the ileostomy bag? I never really had any major issues with mine other than occasional leaks (my fault, I reused the clip too many times and it lost it's "clippiness") and some skin irritation from the loop ileo. I'm just so tired of feeling tense and preoccupied every day from the constant rectal pain and urgency. I feel as if I can't truly connect with those and that around me because I'm thinking, "When he stops talking, I'm going to make a run for the bathroom." In that sense, the ileo was such a relief and it's that relief that I can't get out of my mind lately. Any feedback would be most appreciated. I haven't forgotten about you all; I've just taken a break from a few things. P.S. I just saw a nutritionist two days ago. She had some good ideas about protein, digestion and weight gain. I had just gone off the Flagyl the day before that, so it's probably the lack of Flagyl and not diet that's causing my symptoms.
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