I am really exhausted. I have had my pouch 12 years now and i have a fistula. It may be draining into a fluid collection near my tailbone. My doctors are uncertain about some of the details due to the limitations of imaging.
There are two things that happen. I get constipated. And i get tailbone pain. 75% of the time im good and poop fine although definitely not as frequent as most j pouches. The constipation is annoying but when the tailbone pain happens its excruciating and i get very stressed and all i can do is sit on a heating pad or take tylenol.
The last time the tailbone pain emerged i did the usual things... pelvic floor exercises, enemas, miralax, hydration...which often resolve it but not always. This time a two week course of cipro and flagyl took care of it and i felt great. Nobody knows exactly why abx help sometimes (sometimes they dont help and hydration works better) but anyway i started to think maybe i should just be on cipro and flagyl forever?
Then i got constipated again. I think i made a mistake with my eating and had a whole lot of popcorn. It was a bad choice. Im angry at myself. I was depressed and was reallly hungry and just went to town on it because i love popcorn. I feel like such a glutton and im angry at myself.
I took laxatives and chewed gum (surefire diarrhea) and had a liquid dinner and then i was just pooping liquid. But the popcorn never came out? My stool volume is way less than what id expect for how much i am eating. I have some back pain which makes me think somethimg is still stuck but if the liquid is coming out how has it not been dislodged yet?
The gut is so confusing to me. Clearly its not a pvc pipe. Its living tissue. But i still want to understand my body. I have a family trip to india coming up that has been planned for months with thousands invested and many people involved and if my body screws this trip up i dont know what ill do. I want to cry on the alter of the food gods and beg forgiveness for eating popcorn when i was depressed. There are so few fun foods i can eat anymore. I never chose this life.
What can i do to prevent constipation and pain? I dont want to go back to my bag...i have very sensitive skin and one year of coloplast was hard enough. A lifetime seems unbearable.