1 am, I thought I would use a new catheter and before I knew it I realized it had folded and though I tried to be careful I felt the anxiety and it was close to the opening so I hope it did not do any damage to the internal area of my valve (BCIR), I wish so badly that I had a doctor locally that would look into the area and was knowledgeable "and" supportive. My Surgeon is in another state and it just is not easy or affordable to hop a plane and go there for a scope. Of course if it became serious I would have to find a way. sorry, I am alone and just feel the pressure of having to deal with a lot and it is always with nearly zero support that is close and that is why I am writing this post though I can't really say where it is leading and with kaiser you can't even speak with a physician that knows what a BCIR or K-Pouch is. Oh I really dread this part of the deal but I am also very grateful that I am alive and have a roof over my head. I think the older I get and the fact there are no longer family or friends it is not as easy to just wing this like it might have been. Right now I have placed the cath in with a cap and the belt so it can heal up and also so I don't irritate the area as I have those times where it is harder for the catheter to go in. Well, thanks for listening. I left a message with my local doctor that "after attempting to catheterize there was a lot of blood", but they have not called back and probably wont since their service here has become really worse than ever. And to be honest it is more for documentation in case something worse happens. I would be so happy to here of a few more surgeons getting on board and maybe a bit of support and education to staff in offices that have patients like myself with these needs. Thx for keeping this group up on the web.
Will.