Sending prayers your way.

Debra,
I understand why you are scared and nothing that anyone can say will really make it go away until this is all over. The 'mentally mess up' is probably a stress reaction to everything that you are going through and the fear of something going wrong...you have been through a lot recently and your doctors are not reassuring you about the upcoming date so it is adding stress on top of stress...if you feel up to it and ready then gently encourage them to fix the date so that you can get past this stage and move on...no matter how scary it may be the waiting, I find, is always worse.
No helpful hints or tricks...just prayers for you to be finished with all of this and go forward with your life...healthy and happy.
Hugs and warm thoughts
Sharon

Oops . . . I didn't describe my symptoms very well! My fault!

What I was describing is a physical symptom resulting from the pain. It is the same every time I get a partial blockage: a feverish, unable to think, feeling-of-doom feeling.

But if no one else gets it, I may have to look further . . .

When I used to have patrial or full blockages before I had surgery to fix the area of blocakge, I was feeling the same few hours into blockages. I wouldn't be able to make a decision whether I should ride it or go to ER. I would feel like life is about to end. Unable to think.

Anxiety? Sounds like what I used to get every time that I intubated when my valve was messed up...cold sweats, the 'whites', meaning just blanking out in pure, white fear (of not being able to get my tube in) and terror of it happening again...we all react differently...by the way, a blockage Can cause a fever...absolutely normal...and pain can cause a lot of symptoms too.
Sharon

I think I get the symptoms before I even realize what they are from, though. Do blockages usually cause fever?

They can but not always as far as I know...
I would check with Jan for the definitive word on that...
Sharon