My problen is that i am really scared... I didnt know what was wrong with me back then... docs didnt know either til it was to late... i lost 70lbs in 2 months and collapsed in emergency room.. next thing i remembered i was in critical care unit fresh out of surgery with an illiostomy. Stuck with it for 2 years til I got J-pouch.. was the worst thing i ever experienced. Felt alone and scared. Ruined my social life... lost my job. I domt want to go back there again... and this feels like i am.. i cant have a bowel movement. And if i do its very little... but i cant stop eating.. i haven't lost my appetite, and i dont know where its all going.. no Doctor here will scope me.. and i am stuck waiting on a referal that could take months... so i have to live like this....